My friend Karen mentioned something interesting to me today, and it was about the relativity of time.  That time is relative to speed, and isn't consistent.  I wasn't sure what to think of that, and then our Calculus teacher Mr.Giovanni (I think that's how you spell it), started talking about the 4th dimensions and quantumn mechanics!  He wasn't entirely serious about elaborating it to us, but to me it was ground breaking what he said.  So...from what I understood, according to quantum mechanics, a ball can spin in both directions at once, and an ice cube can exist both as a solid and a liquid in it's confinement.  I'm not entirely sure about anything I just said, it's just my own interpretation of it.  So if anyone knows anything about it, please tell me! 
     I guess something about my life...wouldn't hurt to talk about.  I sat in lunch with my friends today, and my ex was in the same lunch room.  He didn't even look at me.  I'm not sure if I'm mad at him, or if I miss him.  Afterall, I was the one who broke up with him, I don't understand why he didn't even make an effort to persuade me to go back to him.  Ah maybe I'm just being childish and stupid, and in the real world, things don't always work out the way you want them to.  And people aren't really who you think they are, and that you can't predict what they think and do just because you've known them for so long. 

Today I went to see Ingloreus Basterds (yea the spelling is actually like that) in threaters and wow.  The movie was so good!  I absolutely love Quentin Tarantino and his direction for movies.  However, I did think the movie dragged on quite a bit sometimes with the dialogue.  In the previews, they made it seem like it was an all out action movie, but in reality there's hardly any action at all, and it's mostly just people talking.  Which I don't mind that much, except it gets really boring after the 2 hour mark, when you realize nothing has really happened yet, except they're sitting in a bar talking about random stuff you can hardly keep track of.  Overall I liked the movie a lot, because it was a movie you can't really forget because it's so different from every other movie out there.  It feels good for me to go out with friends and get my mind off things.  

Moving on can be so difficult sometimes.  Even though it's been over 3 months since we broke up, I still think about him all the time.  I'll admit I'm weak, and sometimes I'll have to fight the urge to call him, but what can I do?  I sit home thinking about him all day long, wishing things could have been different.  I still love him, and that I know for sure.  Not much has changed really, except for the fact that he moved on instanteously and didn't even look back.  I feel so stupid.

I haven't written anything here for a while because of my hectic(?) summer.  My dad recently got hired as a technician at a hospital in Seattle, and he's been anxious about moving there.  My mom on the other hand, wasn't ready to just give up her job and move with him.  They didn't really fight over this, because my parents for the most part is a really smart and understanding couple (at least they try to be when I'm there lol).  I didn't want my dad to go alone by himself, because I'll miss him to death, and my senior year is starting soon!!!  Oh god that just reminded me I have to go to some stupid orientation for classes.  Anyway, my senior year is going to suck big time.  So I found out that my ex is apparently in like 4 of my classes...AND LUNCH!  I'm not sure if I'm nervous to see him around, or if Im excited to see him.  I know for now I don't want to see him just yet, but everytime I see him by accident (i suppose it is), my heart skips a beat, and I get really nervous to even walk pass him.  I saw him at pathmark the otherday with his mom, and he was in the frozen section.  Which is bad, because I wanted to pick up some waffles and icecream!  He saw me, and gave me a sweet smile.  I couldn't help but smile back at him, but at the same time I wanted to just run away.  Actually I did.  I didn't get any waffles or icecream.  I really don't know what's going to happen this year.  I'll definitely be seeing him a lot.  Maybe I'm just thinking too much.  I'm imagining he'll talk to some other girl in class and ignore me...and have lunch with a bunch of people and a girl in his arms, while ignoring me completely.  And the opposite is still just as scary, with him talking to me in class, and trying to get my attention, and always sitting with me at lunch...  Am I over thinking it?

My dad recently got laid off from his work.  My mom just found out she runs a high risk of cervical cancer.  And my summer is now beginning.  Yesterday was my first time walking at Clemen's park alone without my bf or friends.  It was a unique feeling I can't quite describe.  You know when you're with friends, there's always constant chatters and constant actions, and you can't quite allow yourself to be absorbed into the scenery.  When I was alone, I could hear everything, and I noticed little things I'd never noticed before when surrounded by friends.  I noticed a bush of purple flower behind a bench near the swingset.  Strange, because it was just a plain bush before, yet now it looks as though the entire bush has always been flower.  I also noticed how beat up and old the ground it.  The towns people did a great job rennovating the place, so you wouldn't know it's age if you just walk in and have a picnic.  It's when you look at the cobble stone pathway that leads into the deeper part of the park where there's a rock bed, that you notice just how old these stones are.  I also notice how tall some of the trees are.  It's silly, but I had never really looked up before while in this park.  The trees cast a really mellow shadow over the entire park, and regardless of how hot it is on the pavement, it's always nice and cool near the benches.  Wow, I'm just rambling on about stupid crap.